It's during those times when I feel like I'm losing my grip on life that I really start to put my focus back on God. I think it's because I know without him I can't do it! God made us dependent on him for our strength. He is the source of all life! Crazy how we sometimes act like we can live just fine without Him.
Last night I finally made it to women's small group and it was great! God definitely had me be there for a reason:) We talked about memories and how we are in control of them, not the other way around and how important it is not to let Satan use the memories of our past to control us. Instead of looking at my past and feeling sorry for myself and allowing those feelings of hurt, pain, anger, fear etc to pop up in my mind, I should focus on the positives of those memories. For example, although there is a lot of hurt in my past, I know that God has used it to allow me to identify with the pain others have experienced. Even the mistakes that I have made with my life, play a part in God's plan for my life!
I would argue that I learn the most, not just from time spent with God, but also from time spent with God and other sisters in Christ. It's encouraging to be reminded that we are all in this together. I am not alone!
That is part of why I've let my blog be public. I never want to feel like I'm writing FOR other people, or let myself get caught up in what other people think of what I'm writing. This blog is about what God is teaching me and my life experiences. What other people think of it does not matter to me whatsoever (at least that's something I'm working on). However, I have come to the realization that God teaches me things for a reason, not just for me but so that others can be blessed by it and learn from it as well! I want my life to bless others and encourage others...even if that means putting myself out there, weaknesses and all!
Live in the moment. Relax. Enjoy the beauty around you. Live life like it was meant to be lived!